Before I knew about his status, I accidentally fell pregnant and had an abortion due to career aspirations and I wanted to save for a job. He literally begged me not to do it but at the end of the day, I just wasn't ready. I lost another baby a year later and he was very upset about that - now I know why! Because he knows this is the only route we can go through.
Life is the same boring crap. I work, and he sits at home all Day, watching television and complaining about how depressed he is, and I try and forget about it because it really upsets me as I know he blames it on the fact I had a termination.
I am sick of it. I love him so much but sometimes, just sometimes, I want him to go back to India and just be with his family again and let me live my life. He doesn't realise this affects me as well and as he cannot work he seems like he is going to give up.
I just don't know anymore. Having children is hard now as I have gynaecological problems (possibly from abortion or just a fluke) Is there anyone in my position? Supporting an illegal immigrant? It's only a matter of time now
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He is an overstayer, I cannot support his application on a financial basis as I do not earn over 18K per year and we dong have any savings.